Upon first starting my blog two years ago I automatically felt the need to create this glorified online personality. Being the typical internet crazed millennial that I am, I basically grew up on the internet via YouTube and random blogs that I would frequent. So it only makes sense that I too would eventually venture off into the world of blogging. Nevertheless, I assumed that in order to keep the fire burning beneath my creativity I would have to amass this great following of people. But, as of late it has come to my attention that none of that matters.
As a kid I used to pray to God that one day my writing and creativity would help save the world in some way. Obviously you can’t actually save the world from itself but you can help heal different parts of it. Anyways, I remember back in March when I began to take my blog more serious thinking to myself “Damn, who even cares what I’ve got to say?” You see, my mind was so caught up in who I could impress rather than who I could impact. That right there is one of the worst mentalities a creative or influencer of any sort can have.
God did not bless me with the skill of writing or creativity to amass a great following of people online. God blessed me with this talent in order for me to fulfill my purpose through God’s plan. My mindset when first starting this blog was immature if anything and extremely vain.
Today, I have a small following of 60 people on this blog and honestly that to me is suffice. What more do I need if I am already impacting people? Recognition, accolades and praise on my content does nothing to fulfill God’s plan on my life. All that matters now is that I know I am putting my work out there and whoever gravitates towards my content is who will hopefully be impacted.
Overall, I want to encourage my fellow creatives to let go of the need to have a great amount of attention when it comes to your work. Of course, many of us would appreciate that following so that we can reach more people and hopefully make a profit from doing what we love. However, once financial or social capital becomes your main focus that is when you lose the true essence of who you are and the true meaning of your work.
I want to encourage you all not to lose the essence of yourself or your creative genius. Social support is nice and can be helpful financially but at the end of the day don’t sell yourself short just for attention. Aside from this blog, I began feeling the need to over emphasize my talents by being a little extra on my social media platforms. This is in part why I have taken a break from the main sites that influence me to behave as such.
Nonetheless, throughout this social media hiatus I have reflected this very factor, I need to allow my writing to speak for itself. I don’t need to impress the world, I only need to impact it and positively to be exact.
Serenity, Smiles and Positive Vibes,